Many things happened; Nothing I wanted

The last day of the month and I thought it couldn't get worst.
Apparently I was wrong.
I wanted to run home and dive beneath my blanket for a good cry.Really.
Get me out of February. Now.

Leap Years

Amazing.
The main leads, the supporting cast, the music, the story... the everything.
Wait for my note on the 29th, I say.

At Ease

Jimmy, Kelvin, JK and MK are guys I can totally feel at ease with.
I can tear my throat, talk with my mouth full, don't have to double check if my teeth are clean and clear after a meal, be makeupless and laugh rolling on the floor during fellowship.
In one sentance, I don't have to be mindful of my image and composure.
Of cos, they couldn't care less if it is ME that I'm talking about.
Really, it is a whole lot of fun and enjoyment to let down your guard to be yourself.
After all, I'm with my family and 1 enemy. *wink*

I have to go

I have been exposed to much information and articles about Vietnam.
Not that I was doing data searching intentionally, I just happened to come across when I was flipping through the magazines, newspaper or watching the TV.
This fan the desire to go even more.
I want to get away from the City and Vietnam provides the avenue while striking a balance between urban and rural.
I love her for having a tinge of western and eastern culture. Just like I love myself for the western outside and a very asian inside.
Not talking about my values only, but my likings.
I am drawn to music mixed with chinese orchestra ie. Erhu, di zi (flute).I would like to wear a cheongsam kind of wedding gown if I ever got a chance to walk on the red carpet.And more...
So one more time, anyone interested to tour the land with me?

Me, Sunshine Von & Princess Keighley

Hallmark

I have fallen in love with this SCV Channel and all because of Wire in the blood.
Tony is simply THE hero!Analytical,calm,knowledgeable,caring...He is THE man.
Ok, it is just a character in the show-I know, but at least he carried it out well.
There's so much twist in each story and I admire the scriptwriter for that.
Anyhow, Tony helped the police cracked the case in yesterday's episode after some turns.I wonder why the lady cop does not have feelings for him thou.
Back on track, the murderer was a victim of rejection by her parents. She was only 18 when she committed her first attempt.
How sad. A life was destroyed and many lives were taken because of a young heart that was broken.
Thank God we have Jesus to fix up everything for us!

Fear Not

Ok ok, yes, I am THAT typical Asian Pastor mentioned today.
My fear of failure lies in one interesting aspect that Ling and I are desperate for-
Relationships.
What an irony!
I look forward to starting one yet draw back from starting one for fear of having to end the same one if it doesn't work out.
I don't want to lose my credibility.
I don't wish to tarnish my reputation.
I don't have much of my youth and time to waste.
I don't desire to risk a friendship that developed into a love relationship, turned hostile.
Argh, fear is really birthed out of self-centeredness (Jus look at the number of "I"s and "my"s!)

Sweeties

Can someone go with me?

I just remembered I can get a 1 for 1 return ticket (Jetstar) to Bangkok at $116 or to Ho Chih Ming City at $138 or to Bali at $196.

Reservation must be made by 31 March and Flight must be completed by 30 April.

Can some kind soul avail herself to company me?

I prefer Ho Chih Ming thou- LV just opened the first outlet in the city! Hee.

ShopPING

Can't blame me for being a queen in the mentioned.
I formed part of the word *grin*
Yes, I did it again- Retail Therapy.
But I never really believe it works.
It's just a temporary avenue to vent my frustration and stress.
Temporal, as it only makes me more frustrated and stressed seeing my bank account figures diminish and blood pressure shoots up.
As you can tell, I don't need a rich man.
I earn and spend my own bucks.
Of cos, I don't mind if he happens to be that rich.
And oh! He is :)

Month of Horror

When everything bad happened-
Peng to God: " 9 more days left for You to turn February right."
God to Peng: " 9 more days left for you to turn your attitude right"
Indeed.
God is more interested in our character than comfort.
Looks like a major surgery is unavoidable.

你要的温柔; 我要的自由

Just feel like writing so wrote something.
And like what MK said, I really de-proved.
Arghhhhhh................
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你的孩子气
总让我捉莫不定
象2008的天气
夏日下起毛毛雨
多说你两句
嫌我唠叨、练妈妈经
一旦不理你
怨我冷落、不在乎你

给你你要的温柔
还我我要的自由
一切归零
当爱情没开始过
给你你要的温柔
还我我要的自由
从头来过
当一辈子的朋友

你爱上了顺你、粘你的她
我爱上了独来独往的生活
我们各自寻找自己的幸福
你得到了你要的温柔
我得到了我要的自由

I Love God

Really, but more now.
I'm not expressing my gratitude because of His work 2,000 years ago (have some connections still).
I'm appreciating the biggness of His heart towards me and the relationship He wants to maintain with me even during times that I missed the mark.
I don't have to beg so hard for forgiveness-not that I'm taking Him for granted.
Just like we don't have to convince God to heal us when we are sick, we don't have to convince God to forgive us and cross our fingers that He will somehow.
Of cos, we can't do without asking. We all know that bible verse.
I have never fully understood the magnitude of God's love until Pastor illustrates it with the analogy of a husband/wife who gives endless chances to his/her spouse who committed adultery repetitively.
That's what I call big heart, great love.
Thanks Dad :)

P.S I Love You

It's witty, humorous and touching-worth watching with your loved ones.
Watch it alone if you have to.
The story remains good.
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Arh, why did I have to buy that?
I see blue dollar notes flying off with their pair of fluffy wings, literally.
Impulsive Peng in action again.
OCBC and POSB, please forgive me.
P.S. I still love you.

What To Do When You Do Not Know What To Do?

I was telling my colleagues yesterday that perhaps I should write a book with regards to the mentioned and sell it to my company.
Many times, Account Managers aka Sales Person or better known as Rubbish Cleaners, have done what they know best to generate revenue for the organisation but immediate results are often few and rare. Of cos, we love it when our organization earns money; What's important is the commission, really.
Anyhow, it's times like CNY when we are willing to work hard while our clients aren't.And the obvious happens- no deals clinched.
What to do when we do not know what to do? We have been asking ourselves.
When I am scratching my pea-sized brainy, I am caught in another situation with the same question of a different issue.
Then as usual, a gentle voice from heaven " Silly girl, you are well taken care of."
Note: Not "it", not the situations. "You". Meaning me.
Meaning problems will not disappear, crisis will not evaporate, frictions will not cease to exist but through it all, I don't have to be troubled nor be helpless FOR I am well taken care of. My emotion aspect, my spiritual life, my thoughts will be unaffected if not made better. Wisdom and ideas will dawn upon me and it seems so clear and become so easy to overcome the hurdles.
Then the same gentle voice from heaven, "SEE girl, you are well taken care of."
What to do when you do not know what to do?
Open up your eyes to SEE-Look to Him.

Vday Pics

I want to cry...

(1) So touched. Thanks to M & K for the flowers.
(2) So sad. I'm struggling with my sales. Worst than what I had when I first started out. But I decided not to send SOS msg this time round.

CNY vs V-DAY

Somehow, I dread the former more compared to the latter.
At least I don't have to entertain the guests' queries.
Their good intentions seemed so illed at this moment.
Worst, I have to make a joke out of it.
Don't ask me when? or I will ask you who?
Thank God it is over.
And I'm happy V-DAY is coming.
I have a bunch of hotties celebrating with me.
So privileged *wink*
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I must be sick to think "These people are wasting their time" when I saw them shopping in Orchard during a working day.
Bring me the doc!

溺愛 by Kelly Poon

而我天生是屬於你的啊
怎能說放就放下
我們天生是活在愛的啊
怎麽會在愛裏掙扎
在愛裏憤怒阿
這真的是愛嗎
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Nice song!

More More More!

Friends and Friends Forever

It's better to be cautious than careless.
If there is a suspicion-be it real or reel,I will make it clear to prevent any false hope from delivered.
Over-reacted or overly sensitive/insensitive,I take my stand.
Was 8 years ago and am still holding on.
Why confuse others and result in heartbrokenness?
The same way I prefer and I want to be treated.
I say, friends and friends forever :)

How I wish...

* I can drive
* I own a BMW
* Someone would bless me with a laptop
* Patience is a gift, not a fruit.
* I don't struggle with stage-fright
* I can return to acting and singing like I used to do when I was still schooling
* I have someone on my speed-dial (other than the accidentally added besty).
* God creates 2 of the same kind
* I don't have to think twice when shopping
* I am 1.68m
* I have double eyelids for both left and right
* My skin tone is fair
* My hair reaches my waist when i wake up the next morning
* Victor has someone to talk to during Reunion Dinner
* We have more common friends
* I can bake
* I have a perfect set of teeth
* I can fly whenever and wherever I like
* My legs are less athelete
* My nails are nicely trimmed and shaped
* There is no need to shave
* I have endless supply of CK Eternity
* I can have a good massage now
* The technicians will stop looking down on ladies (who say we don't know anything?!)
* Bonus! Bonus!! Bonus!!! (Yea, I'm on commission I know)
* I have a BIGGGGG mirror in the living room


And the list from the never satisfied continues... ...

Addicted to...

* Shopping
- just look at how my wardrobe expanded in January alone.
* Night Life
- healthy kind, of course! Supper, movies, kopi...etc.
* Analysing
- More of speculating but seldom bull's eyes thou :)
* Matchmaking
- Finding possibilities for others and who knows? I might find mine instead.
* LV,Gucci,CK,DKNY,D&G
- In my dreams lah

Should I?

When Amanda said,"go and see a doctor please," I know she meant business. She is seldom serious.
It must be serious.

I'm Bored

So, I became very imaginative- which is not a good thing at times.
Some thoughts die-d;
One reminded;
Others bloomed all of a sudden.
Must be the spell of February.
Hollywood, Joo Chiat Office, Suntec City, Jurong West lift, Artiste Room-Reminiscence.
Falling back to the grey zone.
I feel safe again.

Tinge of everything

Self explanatory.