So familiar...

Just that I was only 23 in 2003.
And it was him songleading.
But it was much much much louder although we were so much fewer then.

50K

"If the 50k doesn't come in, will you still love Me?"
I said yes.
With tears in my eyes,I said yes.
Even when I needed money the most;
I need Him more.

TIGHT

Really.
And I am not saying it only because it is the end of the month or because I just returned from Kangoroo land.
The re-ops has made money so difficult and I dipped into a mini pity party for split seconds when I read about the spending power during my sister's Hong Kong trip.
I don't think I can afford any impulsive purchases.
I don't think I can just swipe and swipe.
Mel probably got a shock after I refused a policy that costs a little over $100 a year.
And I have to send numerous reminders for a thousand dollars reimbursement.
I am very upset.
Not with the fun others are having but the thought of commissionlessness is extremely daunting.
April $0 incentive.Final.
May is just few days away from closing and I am $250k away from target.
I would say I have worked HARD this month considering the endless OTs and weekends sacrificed.
Actually,I felt I did a good job hitting $650k already but ya,still not above expectations.
Nonetheless,hope may be thin but not finished.
4 more days.

Paint my world

I'm in love!

His stillness and gentleness makes him oh-so-tempting.
His fingers stroked through my hair as I watched deeply at his beauty.
The quietness in his spirit taught me life over again;
His breath ever so fresh,the flowers fade in comparison to him.
The birds freely sing in his presence;
They seem to be chatting about him.
I stand there in envy but a pride glows from within.
This is the man who can resist?!
I know they use "she" to describe a City but Perth seems more like a man to me- I mean, there's no shopping.
Pardon me my language, an overdose of Song of Solomon in me.

I am so...

GLAD! Tenders are submitted.
GRATEFUL!My neighbours popped by to show their concern.
BLESSED!Teammates rendered their help.
HAPPY!The sea breeze at East Coast is therapuetic.
EXCITED!Prayerfully she will come this saturday.
HUNGRY!My lunchtime was spent clearing the legal.
TIRED!Did too much OT and replied too many emails.
DREAMY!I want to cut an album- MY album.
POSITIVE!GSBs arent so frightening.
MOTIVATED!I must hit 900k this month.
LOUD!I sounded like I was preaching to 100s.
AMBITIOUS!Team Head by this year and Group Head by next.
BLAMELESS!I am only busy oki...
GUILTY!Not enough time for besties.
UPSET!How can we be last?
ITCHY!The rashes are not totally gone yet.
BAD!I leave everything to NPL.
SECURED!Ha,I just bought my travel insurance online.
RANDOM!My thoughts are not well organized.
BOOKWORM!So many new covers.
HANDICAPPED!How do I use that typewritor?
EFFICIENT!I can respond to my client almost immediately and everywhere.
PIMPLED!Why?why?!
UNTIDY!My handwriting looks nicest when eyes are closed.
INDEPENDENT!Is it good or ...
APPREHENSIVE!Why am I seated with all the C-levels?
LOOKING FORWARD! Perth,I am coming:)

I am so...

Kleenex

I felt like tissue-thrown away after use.
Maybe I should say, it isn't just me but the entire group.
Can't imagine we are only thought of when help is needed.
HELLO!YOU THINK WE CARE IF WE ARE PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHOSE WORLD IS ONLY ABOUT I,ME AND MY DOG?!
I really felt like telling them that but I didn't, although my reply isn't exactly kind.Haha.
WE HAVE CELL GROUP MEETING YOU KNOW?
I can tell they were shocked.I wonder why they have a thinking that we should always make adjustments for them when they have never made any for us.
WE SEE HOW LAH.BYE BYE.
I don't feel good about my response.
Clearly the Holy Spirit isn't too pleased.
SO WHAT IF YOU ARE TISSUE?
YOU ARE MEETING NEEDS AND YOU ARE THE FIRST CHOICE THEY THOUGHT OF!
JUST DO YOUR FUNCTION AND DO IT WELL.
Ya lor.So what I am tissue?
I am Kleenex! 3-PLY!!

My last lecture

If I were to make the last speech of my life, what would it be?
I will probably address what not to learn from me.
These are mistakes I hope I've never made but glad I did anyway.
Else,I would have missed out many valuable lessons along the way.