Today

Woke up pretty late today but managed to scrub the kitchen floor as promised.
Didn't have much strength thou.
Have been skipping many meals due to the lack of appetite.
Managed to clear half the packed food before going out to get v-day gifts for my office's girls.
Wanted to get VIVI March but is not available at Kino yet.
Finally get to sit at Starbucks with my fav Mocha Frapp.
Busy bb messenging 3 groups of people and forgotten how to enjoy the frapp.
Hmm, how does it taste like?
No matter what, me being me, will still put on a smile.
The more down I feel, the more likelihood you will find me grinning at the smallest thing- That's how I perk myself up.
There are just too many things and ones to be concerned about.
I shouldn't centralise on myself.
Going to spend lots of time in His presence.
Good night world :)

MIA

Will be missing in action from FB and Twitter for a while.
Check on my blog for news updates :)

We made an agreement

Yes it was drastic but absolutely necessary.
I'm no gaga but there's still papparazzi.
We just got to kill it to make us happy.

Sodom and Gomorrah

Why did Lot's Son-in-law doubt when they were told that God will destroy the cities?
Isn't it obvious that evil were dwelling in the land that even angels were desired by men?
Isn't it expected that God will not tolerate such acts and sins?
To them, it had become so common that sins turned natural and comfortable to live with/in.
Sometimes, we could be caught in the same situation that we closed an eye to errors opposing to God's word.
Where truth when told, upsets our hearts as we justify "But , but" or "how could it be?".
The sons-in-law were Lot's family entitled to God's mercy.
They chose to forsake the good and held on to what they are so used to.
They lost it ultimately.
I pray, I will never be nonchalant, to mine or to others.
Love, but not compromise.

So, it is divine

It wasn't by accident that I sat in the session that night.
I learnt alot just by listening and hearing while Pastor talked.
RELATIONSHIPS. TRUTH. ADVICE. CHOICE.
Evaluate what went wrong the previous one before you move on to the next. Otherwise, expect the same result regardless who the man or who the woman is.
It came back to me during worship earlier.
God's kind. My choice. His advice. The truth.
WE. US. OUR relationship supercedes any others.

Toothfairy

Anything you enjoy doing is never a waste of time.
Hmm. I caught something from the movie :)

Children...

Are treasures from heaven. I know.
But as everyone who knows me is aware, I am totally clueless when it comes to handling them.
I would rather be caught dead on the sofa than to be left alone with a child.
I have no idea how to carry a baby, an infant, a toddler, a kiddo...and I have phobia if asked to do so.
I am just, not a kid's person.
I used to want 2, then 1 and now, none.
I simply can't imagine them tearing my world apart or turning it topsy turvy.
Haha, to think I am the same person who goes around encouraging couples to have kids.
I'm sure plans will change after I am married but again, when will that be?
Anyway, I am not in a hurry already :)

No, no special occasion

I like to hear that when I ask why.
A gift received
A free meal
A bouquet of flowers delivered

Concerned

Ok, I'm worried.
But I serve a God whose dictionary has no such vocabs.
And I choose to think of what He can do than what the world might do.
Amen and amen.

And I wonder why

I looked really good that season and I wonder why. Haha.

Speaking into reality

Visualizing.
Spent some time seeing and confessing.
And the longest, on the most unexpected.
Even I, was taken by surprise.

越线

似乎越了线。
超过该说的、做的。
因为这样，心情糟透了。
尽力，也变不足够。
犯的错，让心很痛。
该回到原来的方位了 ：）

如果我变成回忆

We should continue living while alive (sounds repetitive but it isn't)
That's the best gift to those who care
And to those who don't, they shouldn't bother you at all.
Anyway, no "if"s :)
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累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的
就停止了

听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆
退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆
终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的
最舍不得

如果我变成回忆
最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气
霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力
把我忘记

范玮琪 - 没那么爱他

你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强
但有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框

我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去 都是失望
又何必要放不下

是习惯 还是爱
不放心 还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答

其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

深呼吸 抬头望
发现天空很空广
这世界 那么大
幸福总会在某个地方

其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划
留给值得的对象
你知道 不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

"In a relationship with..."

This is what has been popping up in my fb every other week.
And, I feel so happy for them!
Obviously we aren't close friends, otherwise, I would have to bang my head onto the wall for being informed via this mode.
But, this is happy news still!

Thanks for making the trip possible :)

(1) Steven for driving me to the airport at 730am. Amazing, cos we slept quite late the night before.
(2) E47,for the ang pow. Speechless!
(3) Kunyan, for taking care of the cg
(4) Junrong, for helping me with the admin straight after she returned from her own trip
(5) Peiling, for her nonsense and her first aid box :p
(6) Caiyan, for loaning some of her winter wear and the heat packs
(7) The girls in cg. Texting me early in the morning and wishing me well
(8) Karen, for standing in and handling the boards' and ministries' weird requests
(9) Irwan and Shirley for recommending the "must-go" places and "must-eat"food in Shanghai
(10)Raymond, for volunteering to link me with his colleague should I lose my way in the foreign land
(11)Besties, for missing me when I was away. Haha~
(12)Ling's international spies, for the free meals and rides
(13)My sister. Caring for my safety albeit I am already 30 *wink*
(14)The helpful staff in Rendezvous, Cathay Pac and dragonair
(15)Ken, for driving me back
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Sidetrack: Interesting things
(1) Being constantly mistaken to be a Jap during the trip (which happened when I was in Perth too). I credit it to the fashion sense inherited from Vivi
(2) Bumped onto countless times as if it is a norm- reminds me of Korea!
(3) Stopped at China customs twice when I flew in and flew out. Do I look that complicated?
(4) "Gucci, Coach, LV, Chanel" talks in Nanjing Road
(5) Instantly promoted to be a "babe" as that's how all ladies were addressed
(6) Rolex and Longines in rundown boutiques. Mind you, they are not counterfeits
(7) Ajisen and Yoshinoya at half the price and twice as yumnmy
(8) Went to Hangzhou without venturing to west lake. What?!
(9) Spent RMB40 in a tunnel watching some lights. Err, I don't really know how to appreciate that.
(10) Took more cabs than mrt. It's just too cold to walk to the station.