一时兴起 (I'm writing again!)

圣诞的灯火
带不出暖意
寒风攻心
触景伤情

旋转的舞台
唯有你独尊
高棠满座
我变多余

我们的未来
只有孤单的背影
你逃出框框
留我一人在画里
诗中的情谊
是曾经的幸福
或是一时的幸运
选当最佳女配角
演出最大悲剧
一旦曲终人散
你我便成过去

我的伤痕, 你的一时兴起

Rubic Cube

A college student was flaunting his skills on the bus.
And I thought to myself: "My boy can do that 10 times faster."
Then I remembered, he is no longer my boy.
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So many had tried to coach me-
The trick I heard so many times.
Yet I didn't make it cos I didn't put my heart in.
I mean, the one who invented the toy had earned the bucks.
Breaking the code- how would it benefit?
Ha, I'm back to the material me.

Nothing in Life is wasted

Well said!
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"My friend is coming for the Ladies Connect!" I was so excited that night.
Even if the whole cell only has one friend brought by me, all the effort will still be worthwhile.
"Sorry, I'm not coming already."My hopes crashed.
Holding bags of potato chips and refreshment in the train,I nearly broke down.
Call me emotional or weak,but all the preparation for the last few weeks has drained me of all my energy.And all I wanted, is support from my teammates and assurance that I aint fighting out alone.
I dragged my feet to Riverwalk but deciding in my heart,it is still going to be a great meeting with Nanz Chong-Komo.Seeing my buddy fellow leader, I let out a few grudges but got over soon enough as there are better things to get myself busy with.
30 minutes before the meeting starts,Hui came early to help out and said that her sister is coming!
15 minutes later, Wee texted me that she is having dinner with her friend at Central and both of them will be slightly late.
Yeah yeah!
Thanks to all who went all out for the event:
Cookie monster for the sound
Monsteru for the music
Cheryl for the joy
Xuan for ushering the presence
Linda who remained responsible despite her schedule
Ling ah Ling for the so many things including a trip home
Shushan for the intro and finishing
Qinhui for listening
Wee for obeying
Qinhua and Mingxian for coming
And Patrick (Patrick? Yes, Patrick) for the manhood and servanthood.
Of cos, Nanz for the time.
She made me feel that I belong to a BIG zone before KS becomes one.
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Wrong decisions made, is not wasted if you know how to handle the outcome right ultimately and stop making the same mistakes.
Failures along the way, is not wasted as long as you bounced back stronger.
The friend that didn't come in the end, the invitation is not wasted. A seed is sown.
The harvest is near.
No, is here.

The Man On The Stage

I used to dislike him.
Then I grew to respect him.
Now I start to worry for him.
What happened to the language?
Call me religious (I am not!) but I am still stubborn about this: how can one praise God with the same tongue that curses and swears?
Praising a holy God using a defiled tongue-totally unacceptable.
I didn't return to disliking;I just stop respecting.

Fake

I sure can twist my emotions these days.
One moment smiling over the phone; the other moment,hung up the phone and uttered " cheapo, crazy, giam siap, siao."
How unglam.
But when I look at my monitor with my sales report on screen,it's hard to keep my cool.
I need a break.From blackberry, from work, from enquiries, from sales, from clients, from factories, from MCST.
KL seems like a great idea.
So do-
Movies alone, kinokuniya alone, night cycling in groups, ma-la-huo-guo in groups, kbox alone, massage alone, rockclimbing in groups, Seattlers in groups.
This sunday.
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Thanks for the undivided attention even it was just for that 5 minutes.
I feel important :)

Passion & Prayer

We came out of the meeting agreeing we should pray more often as a zone.
Enough of the talks and strategic plannings.
We need to get our hearts right first. In one direction, one vision.
And we are going to the hill next week too! All thanks to Jim :). But if I want to be nice, maybe, I will suggest a less branded hill.
Plead with me bro *wink*

For the Frog-In-The -Well

That's him :)

Panic Attack

I hate the stage of waiting and speculating.
Not waiting for blessings or promises to come to pass but for a reply, a call, a sms, an email.
The last time I couldn't breathe and heartbeats doubled was in a KTV Room.
No,the last time was earlier in my office.
I worried when there was no response after calls were made and smses were sent.
Then I speculated.
Argh,I need to overcome the fear.

"I do!"

I used to think that marriage is just about the two and so, should the wedding.
I wanted a matrimony with just the immediate families at the habour and thereafter,the newly weds will board the cruise,heading straight for honeymoon.
However,after witnessing another couple in union today, I realised I no longer looked forward to such senario.
I want to have as many shared my joy of finding the right one, especially the leaders from YK,VIC and obviously, KS zone.
Then E47 and my N154.
Yeah yeah, I drool over the thoughts of having Pastor Kong and Sun to grace the occasion but I aint greedy.The first 2 categories will be more than enough.
Blame it on the wedding invites packed back-to-back.I'm starting to worry about my own wedding plans.
Wait, I should go by order.
The first worry should be: Who's the groom? And,where?


P/S:Pastor and Vic are the best partners in "suaning" people.They nearly got me rolling on the carpet.

Overcoming Stress

I laughed when I saw the sermon.
Not to my unbelief but it brought me back to reminiscence on how I used to bust my stress:
(1) Cut my hair
(2) Clean up the room
Of cos, the methods are temporal and cutting hair can only be done once in a month even though I might be feeling the heat everyday. Ha, I don't want to end up botak before my time.
Anyhow, I better stick to the 8 steps given *wink*.
Oh, the sources:
(1) I'm 27 and single and STILL available. Why? WHy?? WHYYYYYYYYYYYYY???
(2) Low sales level which leads to...
(3) Little comission which results in...
(4) Lesser income
(5) Aging symptoms. The wrinkles, the eyebags, the slowing metabolism rate...etc
(6) Weddings. Not the ang-pows but, why is it everyone except me?!

AWS

ArgH...1 more month.

I want my MONEY!!!

Not need, just want :)

Mark of my life

Mark-a feature or a distinctive character.
What is the mark of my life?
Eons ago, I made a remark: When I pass on, I want to be remembered as someone who loves God more than life itself.
This statement flashed across my mind again during worship this morning.
My life, Lord, is marked by my love for Thee and Thee alone (language influenced by that Bernard who recites his wedding vow in KJV style yesterday)- at least, this is the cry of my heart.

K1 and K2

I was really a little disappointed after seeing the sms.
Afterall,we really went the miles.
But,it is his day.
So most importantly,he enjoyed himself.
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He is doing alot-alot more than what we can see and imagine.
I salute him.
And I, want to imitate him as he imitates Christ.
But, can I?
Let me start with fasting.

Stardust

Excellent, even when watched alone.
Afterall,the movie is the star:)

China

There's a hole in the puzzle-
I think I lost a piece.
But it doesn't matter.
That's when I'll come in,
And make it complete.
Ha,sound a little boastful.
What I meant is:
I want to be a part of IT :)

Taboo

It's such a no-no to shop during this period of time.
Nonetheless,I took up the challenge to see-see-look-look for Pastor's birthday present.
As expected,I spent more time in the ladies boutiques.
Thank God I didn't make any impulsive purchase like I did on Friday while waiting for the Js (Joshua and June)-I bought a pair of Levis jeans at a discount,which I realised it is kinda short for my 4-inch later.Sigh.This marks the appearance of pumps and flats again.
Anyhow, I hope Pastor will love the AX and DKNY.Personally, I favour these 2 brands.
Oooh, christmas is just 2 months away, here's a list of what-to-buy *grin*:
(1) Mango wide leg jeans
(2) Mango sling bag
(3) AX skinny
(4) Celion Dion's Belong fragrance
(5) DKNY big face,white leather watch

A n B

Ha, NOT Anne and Bernard.
Arise and Build.
Holding the pledge card, I cried, "This may not be the biggest amount among the other givers, but God, this is my best."
However, I hope I can give a few more hundreds at the end of the 6 months and exactly double my giving for the next Arise and Build.
Build my life to be a better:
- daughter.
- cgl
- friend
- collegue
- person.
Amen and amen.

Rebonding

Disappointing.
I'm not seeing the end results yet.
Truth is,I just stepped in the salon for 20mins.
However,I am already groaning in agony.
Whoever serves a cup of tea with a lipstick stain left behind by the previous customer, should be crucified. And I wish, I can just nail the hairdresser somewhere.
The constant nagging about my hair condition really boils me.This is already a fact and that's why I opt for a more expensive package with a better hair treatment.
Also,the pointed end of the comb is used to segregate my hair, not to poke my scalp!Stop! Stop!! Stop!!!
Oh boy, I think I have 3 more hours to go.
But one thing I've learnt, I won't give another 3 more hours at this salon ever again.
Who cares about the miserable discount the card offers?!

E47

It has been a long time since I preached to a group of 20 over.
I feel THRILLED!
I'm back to the "toilet-prayer" habit before cell meeting. And I cried out, "let it not be a man's voice but God, Your voice speaking to the people."
True enough, He showed up.
Now I have seen how 22 looks like in Raymond's house, it is easier to imagine how 39 will look.
But not with another cell.
God, bring it on!

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青花瓷

素眉勾勒秋千话北风龙转丹
屏层鸟绘的牡丹一如你梳妆
黯然腾香透过窗心事我了然
宣纸上皱边直尺各一半
油色渲染侍女图因为被失藏
而你嫣然的一笑如含苞待放
你的美一缕飘散
去到我去不了的地方

天正在等烟雨
而我在等你
炊烟袅袅升起
隔江千万里
在平地书刻你房间上的飘影
就当我为遇见你伏笔
天正在等烟雨
而我在等你
月色被打捞起
掩盖了结局如传世的青花瓷在独自美丽
你眼的笑意色
白花青的景已跃然于碗底
临摹宋体落款时却惦记着你
你隐藏在药效里一千年的秘密
急溪里犹如羞花沾落地
林外芭蕉惹咒语
梦幻的铜绿
而我路过那江南小镇的等你
在泼墨山水画里
你从墨色深处被隐去

蒲公英的约定
小学篱芭旁的蒲公英
是记忆里有味道的风景
午睡操场传来蝉的声音
多少年后也还是很好听
将愿望折纸飞机寄成信
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币
却不知道到底能去哪里

一起长大的约定
那样清晰打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今唯一坚持的任性
在走廊上罚站打手心
我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓
我去到哪里你都跟很紧
很多的梦在等待着进行

一起长大的约定
那样真心
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清
你是友情还是错过的爱情

I want to...

- walk against the wind holding a cup of latte.
- go on a bus ride from one interchange to another interchange.
- listen to Rod Stewart sing that song again.
- be piggybacked when my legs start protesting
- take the lift without fearing when I am on my way home after leaders meeting.
- stroll along the beach barefooted
- watch the sunrise
- make sandwiches
- knit a scarf

My, what am I thinking!?